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2018 a.t.b. my life is over, ilu LJ anyway. <3

Fuck, how did my life become so outrageously boring.


I'm so lonely.

Why am I a lazy bitch? Summer's halfway over and I haven't done anything at all. I hope I can get started on SAT prep before it's too late.

I'm going to completely reinvent myself before the end of the year. I've lost 11 pounds already (9 in the first two weeks of summer), only 14 more until I reach my goal. Even if I can lose 5 pounds, I'll still be happy though. I see skinny girls in Chinatown all the time, but they look like they would pass out if you told them to run half a block. I started actually exercising a few days ago. I'm already at a healthy weight, but I want to be fit.

I'm so bored.

Auuuugh. I feel like crap today. Dim gai.

I have so much crap to say about my new school right now, but I can't post it because my school's all like, "Be careful of what you post on the internet. You represent our school and blah blah blah if we catch you writing mad shit about our school on the internet and destroying our good reputation, we're going to fucking expel you."

I have a craving for chocolate now.

I was drawing on a piece of paper with a pencil and I made a mistake. I reached over to my keyboard to press "ctrl + z", but then I realized I wasn't using photoshop. Dag, yo.

Testing.


ピザ

Now grow, grow, grow! >:D

Edit: Cheese-kun refuses to grow on my ElGay. ;__;

    I have to start writing in this LJ of mine. I'm starting to forget everything I've been doing for the past few weeks. >__<

    Last week, on Wednesday, June 13th, Nancy (imaginationcake) and I tried to make meringues. We failed, and ended up buying them instead. Then we made smores and trolled chatrooms on Ares.

    On Thursday, June 14th, Raymond and I went back to McKinley to visit some old teachers. There were supposed to be more of us, but for different reasons, each of them didn't show up. It was an okay day, I guess. Raymond treated me to some candies and soda. :< We saw a whole bunch of our old teachers, and we talked to some kids in Mrs. Anastasiou's class about what high school was like. They were whispering and giggling to one another while I was talking. I wanted to cry. D:

    On June 15th, I went to visit Bishop Kearney High School. It's an all girls catholic school, and it's really ...clean. >_>;; Everything looks spanking brand-new. And I didn't see a single guy in that place. I mean, I knew there weren't going to be any male students, but I didn't even see any male teachers there either. Maybe they were all hiding lulz. D: Mother's taking me to different private schools so that I can decide which one I'm going to start the school year in during September. I'm a bit afraid of going to a private school, 'cos I've heard that private school kids are really superficial, especially the girls. Hopefully I'll be able to make friends when I start the school year.

    Tomorrow I'm going to MoCCA with Nancy. Chris Yates and Liz Greenfield are going to be there. I'm so excited. :D

    I saw Casanova a few months ago for the first time. I remembered how it made me cry back then, and I watched it again a few days ago online. Now I can't stop rewatching it. ~__~

It's been quite some time since I've last updated. It's 12am and I've got school tomorrow, yet I'm updating my online blog. ...Okay.

So, a few major events that have happened in my life since my last entry are:

1) I transferred out of Bronx Science and into New Utrecht High School 'cos Bx Sci is too far away from home. I deeply regret this decision, as the kids at New Utrecht are complete idiots. Even the ones in the Honours Academy, which I transferred into on my second day there. I've tried to transfer back to Bx Sci, but I was refused. Mother will try to get me transferred into Midwood, 'cos the kids there are supposedly more intelligent than the ones at NU.

2) I went to a Kaiser Chiefs concert in the city on April 12th. Kaiser Chiefs FTW. <3 I was extremely lucky that day, 'cos Nancy and I arrived there early by accident, and we were among the first few people to get into the venue. There was only one row of people in front of us at the beginning of the concert. YAY.

3) Because of the transfer, I've become somewhat mentally unstable and I need to see another psychiatrist. I don't plan on letting anyone help me, 'cos my new guidance counselor at NU said that if my mental problems are because of the transfer, they might let me transfer back with a doctor's note.

I'm finding it extremely hard to get by in school being surrounded by idiots all the time. It's like being in middle school again, except there are no smart kids this time, and I'm the only intelligent person there. It gives me a feeling of superiority, yet I feel so ashamed because I can no longer take pride in being a student at a prestigious high school anymore. Damnit, I am so incredibly shallow.

I haven't been going to school much for the past month. I've been feeling really depressed lately, I don't know why. It's like the first half of 8th grade all over again. D:


I've also been eating a lot of expensive chocolate that I don't deserve.


I haven't checked my friends page in over a month either, even though I've been on livejournal everyday.

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Another month and I'll probably turn emo from all of this.